It’s Sunday. It’s cold and dark outside and festive lighting can be found everywhere you look.
My ankle is hurting and I’m aware that tomorrow will be a turning point in this process. After tomorrow the little extra bone next to the one which is part of the arch of my foot (the os navicular) will be attached to one another. This should reduce the pain from the tendon which is attached to the bone.
I’m not entirely certain why it is hurting more today than usual, but I have been hopping a lot lately because of the numerous courses I have attended. Fortunately the most recent one had parking spots for ladies only and the disabled next to the door, which made my hopping distance minimal. The same applied for the restroom (nearby and on the same level) and the restaurant. That’s awesome. People do not realize it, but when walking becomes painful, the world can become a lot harder to get around in. And because of this, even the most common of activities come with a price. And sometimes that price will pop up not just during that one day, but during the next couple of weeks following upon that day.
But now, all of this is going to change. In 14 hours, I can be found at the hospital for surgery. The surgery will fix at least 85% of my problems and possibly all of it. That number isn’t based on scientific calculations, it’s a gut feeling and for now that’s good enough.
I’ve seen myself walking today without crutches, wearing sneakers and flip flops. Not the shoes I’ve been wearing for the past two years. I’m a woman who only has two pairs of shoes and I’m living in a Western country. That makes me exceptional.
Joseph Mc Clendon III did a meditation with us. It was pretty special since he had us reconnect with our baby version. And we got to their level, got to hold them and tell them it would all be alright. We got to change their future and with that basically ourselves. That was pretty special and very, very emotional.
I’m sitting in my practice right now, realizing I will not see this place for the next two weeks. It’s different from going on holiday. If needed, other people can pick up my stuff and bring it to me. Also, I will continue to work on my vlogs and blogs and my website. And my book of course. I’ll finally be able to finish some projects and that’s good.
The chairs I used had signs on them with “Reserved”. With a bit of luck I won’t be needing those anymore. Although the next course will be on December 16th and then I’ll still be moving around in cast. But when it comes to March, chances are things will have improved so immensely that I might be able to sit normally again. Imagine that.
After all these days, we have received numerous exercises and rituals to use at the beginning, during and at the end of the day. All and all it’s a bit confusing, but in the next couple of days, I’ll be able to sort it out. No doubt about that.
It’ll be a mixture between setting the right intention before getting out of bed, including visualizing and walking around in my finished projects (the once I’m either working on or which are in the stage of development), getting the skills needed to realize this and next thinking about the day and what to do. Next getting up with “Now put your books down and stand up”, to “I’m here!” and “Now I am the voice” up to setting the intent about who I am, getting back to what I need to do to get there. During the day it’ll be about taking away limiting beliefs and replacing them with empowering beliefs. And at the end of the day more exercises will follow, programming me for my sleep. That’s the simple version.
Again, I’m going to have more than enough time to work on all of this in the next couple of weeks. My priority before leaving here? Gathering all the stuff to create a program/framework I can work with in those weeks.